I am beginning to feel like an explanation, or perhaps even a disclaimer, or four, is in order. When I began writing on WordPress, I did so for purely self-preservation reasons. I was caught in an emotional trap and felt a giant festering boil of vitriol building within me and I needed to lance that soon, before it drown my spirit. To that end, “Aroilinpain” has been a great success. I no longer feel consumed by the anger, resentment, fear, anxiety, and despair that was eroding my soul. For that I am eternally grateful.
In the process of trying to maintain a daily writing discipline, I have come to enjoy the journey not just as a release, but also as a fertilizer! I am finding that the more I write, the more I feel a need to express. Surprisingly, the more I express, the more people hear.
This has recently taken an amazing and frightening turn! People are actually reading what I’m writing and responding to it! Eek!
Now, for the Caveats and Disclaimers!
1. These words are Mine! They are about ME! If you read them and decide they are about YOU, seek therapy! If you remain convinced that these words are a personal affront or an indictment of your lifestyle, the time may be ripe for what the twelve steppers call a “Fearless Moral Inventory”; a close and brutally honest examination of your own thought, feelings, behaviors, and actions as well as an unvarnished look at the devastation these have rained down upon those closest to you! Just sayin’.
2. If you read these words and they resonate within you, evoke some emotion, or affect how you look at something and that makes you feel, or think, or act in a different and more life affirming way, then that is bonus but not to my credit. I just wrote some words, you did all the hard work. To paraphrase on of my childhood mentors, “Damn it, Jim! I’m a doctor, not a poet!”
3. If you read these words and your blood boils and you find yourself filling with rage, or hate, or despair then STOP READING! Like the positive response in the paragraph above, That is all about you and not about my words. In addition to the aforementioned advice to stop reading, you may also want to consider the advise in disclaimer paragraph 1 regarding therapy.
4. I am NOT writing for an audience! Some of the things I write will seem harsh, offensive, profane, cruel, and insensitive. Sorry. Please feel free to ignore that post and wait for the next. Please feel free to offer feedback about what I write. Please do not engage in rants or flames that exceed the length of my original post. Since I’m mostly writing poetry, this may be a challenge! Heart felt feedback and literary critique are welcome; personal assault is not,
In conclusion, I would like to offer my thanks to those of you who have expressed appreciation for my postings and my humble gratitude for those who have chosen to follow this blog. These two things lift my heart and inspire me more than I would ever have imagined!